part of your heart

When you lose a baby, part of your heart leaves with them. I am convinced of that. You will never feel the same as you were before if you have to walk this road. You will be forever changed. I look at things so differently now. As I watch my beautiful niece grow, I can’t help but wonder what Emma would have been like, what their relationship would be, the similarities, the differences, etc. Emma would have been 19 months old, I can’t believe it. Oh how I miss our sweet girl.

Over the past year ½ plus, we have been putting our full trust in God and HIS plan. Although it might not have been ours & our hearts will never be the same, I truly believe losing Emma has made our hearts even bigger and prepared us for so much more. One of the things that we need to be prepared for is having another baby. And well to be honest, the past 19 months without a child have not been "easy".  You dont go back to your life prior to being pregnant.  So although I wish our sweet Emma was here to tell you….

She is going to be a big sister! We are excited yet cautious, as losing a child will ultimately do that to you, regardless of how long it has been since you lost a child. I do not want worry and fear to cloud this pregnancy so I would appreciate your prayers in this! God knows exactly when this baby will be born and I find great comfort in that, although I am seriously praying for full term!  I am 14 weeks on Thursday, due December 9th! I have had many doctor appointments and am comforted by the fact that my doctors are being proactive and very helpful. Please join us in praying for our precious baby! Ill update more later…but for now ill leave you with one of my new favorite pictures :)

He has made everything beautiful in its time.  Ecclesiastes 3:11

Love,
Josh, Angie & baby Nixon