I wrote this post a few years ago. I am not the same person as I was then. I am not feeling the 'raw' pain of losing a baby when I wrote that. I've had another perfect baby girl since then and have been blessed to have her here on earth for almost 2 years. I am missing my first baby girl, though. Always. I miss her so much that I can literally feel it. I always wondered what I would feel like years down the road. And at almost 4 years since I had Emma, I still miss her. Every single day. Its not the same pain, but it's there. And I know It wont be going away. When she died a piece of my heart went with her and I cannot wait to get to heaven to love on my baby girl. I say all of this because it isnt just one day. Losing a pregnancy or a baby, changes you. It changes your life and most importantly, your heart.
I dont understand the ways of my God, but boy do I trust Him. It was not my will that Emma isnt here on earth with us. But if I didnt trust Him, I wouldnt have the promise and hope that I do that surely only comes from Him. The promise that I will be reunited for eternity with my Emma and the hope that He provides for my life.
I am praying for all of you who has suffered a loss. For those of you that are years out and missing your babies and those that are in the raw, physically aching pain. Know that your babies aren't forgotten.
I still cling to some of my favorite verses that got me through the darkest of days.
'Be still and know that I am God' Psalm 46:10
'Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden in light' Matthew 11:26.
"Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy" Psalm 126:5
'Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding' Proverbs 3:5
I posted this on instagram last week. My caption was 'My heart. Minus one piece that is in heaven'. I miss that piece in heaven so much and she will never, ever be forgotten.
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Beautiful post Angie. I love that last picture and the caption you had with it. Praying for you and every woman who has experienced a loss similar.
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful post. Praying for you today and remembering all those who are suffering from a loss. I know you miss your little girl and I praise God you have one here on Earth with you.
ReplyDeleteI love you more each day. you're Beautiful, and your heart is too. your strength is inspiring momma! great post. prayers & hugs
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Sar! You are such a dear!! Prayers for you as well!!
DeleteThis post is absolutely beautiful, Angie. You are inspiring, and your heart for the Lord is amazing. Sending prayers your way today...
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for your kind words, Amber! They mean so much - as well as the prayers!!!!
DeleteI thought of you when I woke up this morning and realized what today was. I am praying for you today, and for all who have lost babies. Hugs!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, Jodi. You are so thoughtful and sweet, and I always appreciate your prayers!
DeleteBeautiful post Angie. I hate that we are part of this club but I am so very grateful for people like you to help me walk the path.
ReplyDeleteHugs,
Trisha
I couldnt agree more. I thought of you so much and you are never far from my mind. Prayers for you as well, sweet friend!
DeleteThis is a beautiful post Angie. Thank you for sharing your story. You provide strength for others, and I think those that have lost pregnancies or infants surely need this community. God bless you and your sweet family!
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